by NONA BLYTH CLOUD
There are some people who begin to hear the ticking of the clock louder and louder in their lives, that relentless reminder that death is somewhere up ahead. They study it, try to pry at death’s secrets, and if they are writers, they chronicle it.
Claudia Emerson (1957-2014) wrote a lot of poems with death in them, not in a resigned or a morbid way, but exploring with words her encounters with its many faces, from the bones of a bird to the ending of a marriage, and the cancer treatment which ultimately failed to keep her alive.
It was first dark when the plow turned it up.
Unsown, it came fleshless, mud-ruddled, nothing
but itself, the tendon’s bored eye threading
a ponderous needle. And yet the pocked fist
of one end dared what was undone
in the strewing, defied the mouth of the hound
that dropped it.
. . . . The whippoorwill began
again its dusk-borne mourning. I had never
seen what urgent wing disembodied
the voice, would fail to recognize its broken
shell or shadow or its feathers strewn
before me. As if afraid of forgetting,
it repeated itself, mindlessly certain.
. . . . . . . . Here.
I threw the bone toward that incessant claiming,
and watched it turned by rote, end over end over end.
“Bone” from Pinion: An Elegy, © 2002 by Claudia Emerson –
Louisiana State University Press
The next poem comes from a collection she opens with this epigraph:
Memory believes before knowing remembers
– William Faulkner
At first, I mistook the small, black tattoo
. . for a phone number or a date jotted
In haste on her wrist’s paler underside –
. . then suspected stitches when it didn’t fade.
I was not far wrong. (Her poems: careful,
. . deliberate, thin as she was, haunted by a mother
years dead – not a word about the brief grief
. . of the father who saw in her a worsening
resemblance.) I imagined what it took
. . for her to enter the parlor, where nothing –
garish bird, snake, broken heart – could tempt her,
. . turning from the small, determined letters:
think. The word she had purchased moved faintly
. . in what she must have thought would be
permanence about her pulse, her body’s argument
. . to think what she wished she could still feel,
arm bared for another coming
. . into being, the needle’s indelible sting.
“Student Conference” from Secure the Shadow: Poems, © by Claudia Emerson –
Louisiana State University Press
The household sells in a morning, but when
they cannot let the house itself go for
the near-nothing it brings at auction,
the children, all beyond their middle years,
carry her back to it, the mortgage now
a dead pledge of patience. Almost emptied,
there is little evidence that she ever
lived in it: a rented hospital bed
in the kitchen where the breakfast table
stood, a borrowed coffee pot, chair,
a cot for the daughter she knows, and then does not.
But the world seems almost right, the near-
familiar curtainless windows, the room
neat, shadow-severed, her body’s thinness,
like her gown’s, a comfort now. Perhaps
she thinks it death and the place a lesser
heaven, the hereafter a bed, the night
to herself, rain percussive in the gutters—
enough. But like hers, the light sleep of spring
has worsened—forsythia blooming
in what should be deep winter outside
the window—until it resembles the shallow
sleep of a house with a newborn in it,
a middle child she never saw, a boy
who lived not one whole day (an afternoon?
an evening?) sixty years ago in late
August. And as though born without a mouth,
like a summer moth, he never suckled
and was buried without a name. She had waked to that—
that cusp of summer, crape myrtles’ clotted
blooms languishing, anemic, the cicadas
exuberant as they have always been
in their clumsy dying.
is now the nearer, no, the only child.
The undertaker’s wife has not bathed
and dressed him; the first day’s night instead
has passed, quickening into another
day, and another, and he is again awake,
his fist gripping a spindle of turned light,
and he is ravenous in his cradle of air.
“Ephemeris” from The Opposite House: Poems, © 2015 by Claudia Emerson,
Louisiana University Press
These last two poems are from Late Wife, which won the 2006 Pulitzer Prize for Poetry.
I think by now it is time for the second cutting.
I imagine the field, the one above the last
house we rented, has lain in convalescence
long enough. The hawk has taken back the air
above new grass, and the doe again can hide
her young. I can tell you now I crossed
that field, weeks before the first pass of the blade,
through grass and briars, fog — the night itself
to my thighs, my skirt pulled up that high.
I came to what had been our house and stood outside.
I saw her in it. She reminded me of me —
with her hair black and long as mine had been —
as she moved in and then away from the sharp
frame the window made of the darkness.
I confess that last house was the coldest
I kept. In it, I became formless as fog, crossing
the walls, formless as your breath as it rose
from your mouth to disappear in the air above you.
You see, aftermath is easier, opening
again the wound along its numb scar; it is the sentence
spoken the second time — truer, perhaps,
with the blunt edge of a practiced tongue.
Frame: An Epistle
Most of the things you made for me—blanket-
chest, lapdesk, the armless rocker—I gave
away to friends who could use them and not
be reminded of the hours lost there,
not having been witness to those designs,
the tedious finishes. But I did keep
the mirror, perhaps because like all mirrors,
most of these years it has been invisible,
part of the wall, or defined by reflection—
safe—because reflection, after all, does change.
I hung it here in the front, dark hallway
of this house you will never see, so that
it might magnify the meager light,
become a lesser, backward window. No one
pauses long before it. But this morning,
as I put on my overcoat, then straightened
my hair, I saw outside my face its frame
you made for me, admiring for the first
time the way the cherry you cut and planed
yourself had darkened, just as you said it would.
“Aftermath” and “Frame: An Epistle” from Late Wife, © 2005 by Claudia Emerson, Louisiana State University Press
Claudia Ann Emerson was born on January 13, 1957, in Chatham, a “one-stoplight town” in the southern part of Virginia. She graduated from the University of Virginia with a degree in English and returned to Chatham, where she was a part-time mail carrier and managed a used-book store.
She wrote songs from a young age, but she was inspired to write poetry by reading Rainer Maria Rilke’s “Letters to a Young Poet,” a book she discovered in the store where she worked. Emerson applied to and was accepted for the University of North Carolina at Greensboro’s creative writing program, earning a master’s degree in 1991.
In 1994, she was hired as an English professor at the University of Mary Washington in Fredericksburg VA. Emerson was Poet Laureate of Virginia from 2008 to 2010. In 2013, she joined Virginia Commonwealth as a creative writing professor.
On December 4, 2014, Claudia Emerson died from colon cancer at the age of 57.
Though much of her work is “dark,” her clarity of perception lights up the words, like a modern-day illuminated manuscript.
- Impossible Bottle: Poems (published posthumously – Louisiana University Press, 2015)
- The Opposite House: Poems (published posthumously – Louisiana University Press, 2015)
- Secure the Shadow (Louisiana State University Press, 2012)
- Figure Studies: Poems (Louisiana State University Press, 2008)
- Late Wife (Louisiana State University Press, 2005)
- Pinion: An Elegy (Louisiana State University Press, 2002)
- Pharaoh, Pharaoh (Louisiana State University Press, 1997)
- Old cornfield
- Tattoo parlor window
- Night view of a house from tall grass
- Wooden-framed hall mirror
- Claudia Emerson
Word Cloud photo by Larry Cloud
Brother of a friend of mine, upon learning that he had stage-4 lung cancer, said:
“DEATH: 50 billion people can’t be wrong!”
Hi Malisha –
Wow – gallows humor to the max. Sometimes that’s all we’ve got.